Accuracy and Absurdity

Sometimes in life it seems to you that you have become totally numb....like totally lost in thoughts …everything around you is buzzing .Its all very common for our lives ,but at that moment you can understand those tiny little mysteries like confusions through much easier way than the redundant ideas and time associated with our lives .Religion call it your direct converse with God...But agnostics or atheist like me or perhaps in better sense people with confused belief consider for a moment in the religious way and for the next moment in the opposite way....obviously we don't do this consciously .This probably shows our undermined way of thinking comparative to those who are accurate about their beliefs(atheists and religious people)..but probably it would be better to say for refutation that because of thinking like this for a period of your life you can better prepare yourself for what you were before this...what are you going to be after this and how do you contradict with your previous beliefs and how this is going to be better than before .And I am sure that every atheist has gone this way before taking the U-turn of being accurate about the opinions of the existence of God and also every religious person if he/she was not religious before this absurd period .All of this perhaps will appear to you as a meaningless explanation or perhaps it will be something which is also happening with you in the exact same way if you are also passing through this confused period .But all I want to say through this explanation is this that absurdity is not always inane but is perhaps sometimes more useful than accuracy because accuracy wouldn’t have existed if there was no absurdity .